Today we put you and your ashes to rest.
Should I have kept you home where I could see you and feel you, or is that thought weird?
Would that have helped me in the long run or just made me more depressed than I already am.
As I saw all those who love you gather around and cry because we miss you all I could think of was why did it have to be you.
When I was asked to say a few words as your sister and second mother I couldn’t even open my mouth without feeling like I was going to choke or throw up from the agony I felt. I felt calm, at peace, but at the same time like my world was ending and I was plunging deeper and deeper into an eternal abyss of darkness.
We had so many plans and dreams and now what am I supposed to do if you aren’t there to make them a reality. It barely has been two months and it feels like an eternity since the last time I heard your laughter.
I miss you…. I miss you so much…. I love you …. I love you so much…. I just want to scream to the world why did it have to be you. I hope you miss me too.